004 // The Things
There are certain happenings and times in your life that you will never forget – you're biggest accomplishments, the first time you kiss that girl you call your wife or the guy you call your husband, that trip to Mexico; the list goes on and on.
I am a bit forgetful at times – I'll forget your name, that time we had together, whatever – but the one thing that I never forget about and, in fact, think about everyday is loss. Losing somebody and knowing that you'll never get to see their smile again or drink a beer with them or a share laugh.
I'll never forget the night of April 1st, 2016. I can remember it vividly to this day; Cody had me upside-down, more times that I can count, doing keg stands so he could snapchat it and send it to people so we could celebrate together and have a good time. I'll never forget riding home from pizza on April 3rd, next to my good friend Brian, and instantly knowing that something wasn't right by the way he was talking on the phone. I'll never forget Brian getting out of the truck and punching a concrete wall out of anger and heartbreak. I'll never forget wanting to do the same minutes later after he turned around and said, "Cody passed, man. He's gone". He had tears flooding his eyes and I'll never forget how he looked as he said those words.
I'll never forget this date for the rest of my life. I'll never forget quite a few days or dates in my life.
I've learned – from losing good friends and family members, to watching friendships and relationships crumble – that some things never get easier. Some will tell you that 'Time heals everything', but I don't believe that's always true.
Time will never heal your heart when a friend or family passes to early. What I've learned is that time makes it easier to deal with. Clocks tick, days pass, months go by and it gets easier to accept the fact that this is how life will be. You learn to love what you did have with the person while they were here, and you cherish the memories you made with them.
I can't believe it's already been a year since that call came though and we got the news that you'd passed. Keep watching down on us. May you rest in peace, my friend.